Considering intersectional perspectives in efforts of activism

Out loud: Navigating selfhood amidst compulsory heterosexuality

I’m gay.
For me, that phrase defines more than just who I love. It impacts who I hang out with and who I trust. It determines the kinds of spaces I inhabit and how I inhabit them. It affects all of my relationships with others, regardless of how out and open I am with them. It’s who I am. But for the longest time, I refused to use that label.
For most of my life, I never thought about my sexuality. In middle school, I actually took pride in the fact that I wasn’t interested in boys and at times even considered myself superior to all the boy-crazy girls I knew. But I think I always assumed, at least on a subconscious level, that it was something I would grow out of as I emotionally matured. Of course, I never did. It wasn’t until midway through my high school career that I first realized I might be attracted to girls. This realization marked the beginning of a years-long journey that I still haven’t completely finished. Coming to terms with the fact that I like girls wasn’t the whole picture; I also had to figure out something else. Did I actually like boys too?
After that first spark, I was reluctant to identify as anything other than straight. I was “heteroflexible,” I was “open-minded,” I was “straight with one or two exceptions.” From there, as I started to understand that this newfound attraction was not limited to just a few specific individuals, I toyed with many different labels. I knew I liked girls, and as my social circles and knowledge of the world broadened I began to include nonbinary people too, but what I didn’t know was whether I liked boys.
By writing this, I am in no way intending to discount individuals who do identify as bisexual or pansexual or to imply that they are “confused” or “lying to themselves.” Every person has their own experience, and many people truly are attracted to multiple or all genders. This article is only meant to reflect my own story, and my own personal struggle to come to terms with the fact that it’s OK for me to be more exclusively gay.
But why was this realization so hard to come by? The answer lies in the way I was raised, the society I live in, the cultural messages I have absorbed my entire life and, ultimately, in a phenomenon called compulsory heterosexuality. For those of you unfamiliar with the term, it essentially means that our society enforces straightness as the norm and pushes this on people as the only natural form of existence. One effect of this for me was that I convinced myself that I was attracted to boys because I assumed it had to be true and that there was no other way to be.
I remember choosing boys seemingly at random to have crushes on and convincing myself and others that my attraction to them was real. I remember insisting that I would find a boy I liked someday, that I just wasn’t ready yet or that none of the boys I knew were good enough. I remember seeing boys and wondering if they were attracted to me and deciding that if they were, then I would like them back. Finally, though, I started to realize that it didn’t have to be that way. I didn’t have to like boys back just because they liked me, I didn’t have to wait until I met a good enough guy to prove that I wasn’t attracted to him (or any man) and I didn’t have to pretend to be in love with people I didn’t know just to be normal. It was liberating.
Heteronormativity isn’t created on its own, however. It requires people to participate and uphold it, whether knowingly or unconsciously. For queer women and woman-aligned nonbinary people, some of the biggest obstacles to overcoming this heteronormativity are those put in place by straight women. I don’t believe that all straight women are homophobic or that they are even fully aware of their actions, but the point still remains that they are unknowingly complicit in the enforcement of compulsory heterosexuality. From the flicker of false hope I feel whenever a straight woman refers to a friend or acquaintance as her “girlfriend” to the media’s labeling of potentially (or even confirmed) queer women as “gal pals” or “close friends,” rather than romantically involved, these types of attitudes are everywhere.
Dismantling the systems of heteronormativity is no simple task, but each and every one of you reading this can take small steps towards helping the queer people in your lives. Be aware of your hypocrisy when you encourage straight women to be intimate with their friends and yet, at the same time, voice your discomfort with queer women simply existing near you. Be aware of the language you use and how your words may resonate with others. Be aware of the implications of your actions. Be aware, be prepared to listen and be ready to learn and to do your own research sometimes. Remember that this is only the first step, but don’t let that deter you from taking it.

Out loud

Considering intersectional perspectives in efforts of activism

This piece represents the opinion of the author:

February 9, 2017

Two weekends ago, I traveled with five other members of BQSA to Marlboro, Massachusetts, to attend the transgender-centric First Event conference. As a young nonbinary person who is still quite early in the process of figuring out their identity, I truly believe that I needed this experience in my life.

It wasn’t just the time I got to spend bonding with some of my closest friends at Bowdoin and it wasn’t just the new friends I made in workshops and at mealtimes. There was a feeling that I can’t put into words, no matter how hard I try, a feeling that came from being surrounded by the largest number of transgender and queer people that I’ve ever seen in one place in my life. From teenagers and young kids, supported by their proud and loving parents and grandparents; to adults and seniors—alone or with their partners and friends—they filled the hotel, the lobbies, the banquet halls, the conference rooms and the narrow hallways. The energy that I felt simply from being in such a presence was indescribable.

But as amazing as it all was, as exhilarating and validating and inspiring, it is still important for me to keep in mind what was missing. During his keynote speech at the banquet dinner on our last night at the conference, minister Louis Mitchell, a black trans man and activist, called attention to the problem that I had begun to sense earlier in the weekend. That is, while there were certainly other groups represented at the conference, the vast majority of attendees were white and presumably relatively well-off trans women. Mitchell’s speech brought to the forefront a crucial message about the nature of privilege, one that applies not just to the trans and gender-variant community, but to many other groups of people.

Mitchell spoke to several inequalities within the trans community. He talked about “passing privilege,” and many trans individuals’ tendency to look down on others who do not conform quite as well to the appearance and gender presentation that is expected of them. He talked about race and how First Event is not the only time in which trans people of color are vastly underrepresented. He talked about class and the inherent privilege held by all of the conference’s attendees simply for being there, while so many other trans people in America and around the world are homeless, or are living in poverty, or are forced to sell their bodies in order to survive. But, most importantly, he talked about why this matters.

It is crucial for all of us to engage with the parts of our identities that give us advantages in society, regardless of whether other aspects of our identities are working against us. For example, I am gay and nonbinary, but I am also white, and because of this, my experiences will be vastly different from those of a gay nonbinary person of color, or of one who is from a working-class background. Similarly, a white cisgender woman will be disadvantaged in society compared to a white cisgender man; however—and this is something that seems to be forgotten especially often in some circles—her challenges will vary in nature and scope from those faced by a woman of color or a trans woman.

Recognizing and talking about these privileges is often uncomfortable for us, but, as Mitchell said in his keynote speech, in order to make any kind of positive difference we must make ourselves feel uncomfortable. If we can’t allow ourselves to adopt an intersectional perspective and recognize other voices are out there that are different from our own, the causes for which we advocate will never truly be able to succeed.

In today’s climate, I have no doubt that many of you who are reading this have some sort of movement that you are passionate about. Whether you are debating with peers and relatives, or calling government representatives, or attending protests or simply sharing articles on social media, there is a good chance that, as a Bowdoin student in 2017, you are currently engaging in some form of activism. While it is certainly important to involve yourself with causes that personally affect you, and to fight to end injustices that you are directly hurt by, I ask that you also keep in mind the diversity of the human experience, and the reality that others may be impacted by the same forms of oppression in different ways.

Recognize that trans women are also hurt by misogyny, instead of equating the uterus and genitals with womanhood in your feminism. Recognize that LGBT individuals also need access to information about sexual health, instead of centering your sex education and positivity around heterosexual relationships. Recognize that people of color experience their own unique forms of oppression, instead of building your movement on the interests and goals of white people. Recognize that disabled people, and immigrants, and religious minorities, and poor people and so many others, have causes that are just as worth fighting for as yours. Recognize that they may be a part of your cause too, rather than only thinking about movements that involve yourself and people like you. Use your privilege to make the world hear their voices. Use your privilege to make change.

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