What I looked  forward to most about Spring Break was a chance to experience warm weather for a while. Before the break, my memories of warmer temperatures had started to wane, and that mysterious word “sun,” which carried with it the promise of warmth and brightness, had been hollowed out by the persistence of winter.

I was certain that after thawing out in the southern part of the country, I would return to a less arctic version of Maine. Upon my return, I realized my certainty had failed me.

Over break I received puzzled stares and probably some unuttered recommendations for a stay in the psychiatric ward when I went out in 55 degree weather with nothing but a T-shirt on. I shouldn’t have expected anything less in good old North Carolina, where one powdery snowflake gently landing upon the ground signals the impending apocalypse. Nonetheless, I relished the opportunity to swing my bare arms around as I walked outside and felt much lighter without the extra layers of clothes I had become accustomed to wearing.

Shortly before returning to campus, I checked the weather in Brunswick to see how I should dress for the plane ride back. When I saw temperatures that were only a few degrees warmer than the ones I experienced before break, I was slightly taken aback. 

Several days passed following the end of break and still the air stayed chilly and the wind blew fiercely. I had adjusted to the cold weather I expected well enough, but I was quickly growing tired of the militaristic morning routine of gearing up for the day. I longed for a chance to stroll outside in conditions that were not hostile to lighter dress.

My trip home had spoiled me. It reminded me that there is indeed a life outside of Bowdoin, a life that has its own perks and advantages. I was spoiled not only by the weather, but also by two weeks of no classes. 

Luckily, however, spring is finally beginning to return, and with it re-emerges a sense of clarity from the cloudy gray skies of winter. I am starting to realize that the extended winter was nothing to despair over. Nor is the stress I feel when managing my commitments to Bowdoin and my commitments to myself.  

Situations arise and you deal with them. That is how life is lived. Whenever the first sign of stress or disheartenment creeps up in me, I think of a dialectic, which reconciles two opposing ideas by synthesizing the relationship that grounds their opposition. 

In my opinion, what transcends the opposition between calm and stress, desire and predicament, is life. 

There is peace in that, though I am aware that this yogi-ish stream of thought will freeze over next winter, leaving me again and waiting for spring to thaw it once more.